tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4585940674576952988.post4150974317512421755..comments2022-03-25T00:02:22.085-07:00Comments on Remnant Postings: My Struggle With Chronic PainJessica Krohnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16040187397843933880noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4585940674576952988.post-27346136366480162642013-06-03T00:11:19.343-07:002013-06-03T00:11:19.343-07:00Your post brought tears to my eyes. I also have Lu...Your post brought tears to my eyes. I also have Lupus... and Rheumatoid arthritis, and fibromyalgia, and endometriosis, and chronic fatigue syndrome, ibs, Sjogren's Syndromes. For the last 13 years I have been dealing with crippling pain that medicine has not yet relieved. Im no longer working I leave the house maybe once a week to see my family. My days are filled with tears, arguments with my husband that cause even more pain from stress, and constant hopelessness. He is irritated that I cannot do more and doesnt understand, and I want just so badly to be cared for and treated tenderly with compassion and understanding. We also just filed for bankruptcy because of my medical debt. I feel insane amounts of guilt and anger for what I cant do to help. I keep telling myself I cant imagine living another 20 years like this. I feel like I've been searching for so long for a doctor that will help me but it never comes. Sometimes I think that maybe this is just my life and I better learn to cope with it. <br /><br />I am also a christian and like you feel that if I did not have him in my life I would not be here. It is so easy to feel alone but random internet searches that find something like this gives me the strength to keep going. I am not where your at and I dont know if I'll ever be but its nice to know im not alone. Not many understand the darkness of chronic pain and bad health. Not being able to control what you want to do for yourself. Having to rely on others for even minor tasks such as picking up a pitcher of water or carrying laundry. It builds and builds until you cant hold it in any longer. <br /><br />But there is one things I have cemented in the very depths of my soul from of all this. You are more thankful for those good times, even if just for an hour out of an entire week or month. Those times are that much more sweeter when you have been starved of those sweet things in life. I think theres a greater understanding of life and struggle if you've dealt with any chronic illness. It only takes a moment to brighten someones day and after going through what I've gone through I find it much easier to smile at someone or make a kind gesture. I guess if thats one thing God has taught me through all of this... To have sympathy and kindness for others as they could also be facing the same struggles or worse, then I have to live with that and be grateful for that understanding. A person may go a lifetime not understanding the bigger picture but be happy and healthy not realizing... I have to see that I am lucky because God has shown me how to be patient, kind, and understanding of others. I hope others see this thread and realize they arent alone either. I have been through a lot... more than some people will ever experience in three lifetimes. But I hope that means I can make that much more of a difference to others feeling sadness and loneliness. Someone is always watching, always listening, no matter how bad it gets...One person you can count on no matter what.Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00850534600185741047noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4585940674576952988.post-2504138229980211952013-01-15T12:24:12.234-08:002013-01-15T12:24:12.234-08:00What a touching life story, Jessica! I’m glad that...What a touching life story, Jessica! I’m glad that what you went through made you a stronger person. Dealing with back pain and other serious illnesses is one problem that many suffer from. The cause can be a variety of reasons but they all inflict pain and discomfort. It’s also great that your doctor understands and can relate to what you’re going through.Tiffani Villagomezhttp://www.ocbackandbodydoctors.com/noreply@blogger.com